“Thinking of You” is one of those Hallmark sentiments you say when you don’t exactly know what to say. It shows up on greeting cards with pictures of smiling squirrels or maybe a watercolor of a basket of flowers. Its usually in script font. “Thinking of You” seems appropriate tonight. It is all I can think of to say.
I started this blog to catalog my journey into “adulthood”, to share my artistic endeavors, my path to happiness, share quips about newlywed life … you get the idea. While I haven’t been great at updating lately, its not for lack of thoughts on my behalf, I think I’ve had too many. Tonight, I would love to delve a little bit deeper if you’ll let me.
Please forgive me if I don’t share too many details though.
There are two families I am thinking about, both are mine. They once were one, now they are two. I am from both, both are part of me as I am part of them. One more obviously, one not. Both have had incredible losses in the last 6 months and I mourn for both. Why does death come in three?
I have grieved in unique ways for each of these beloved family members… but to think of the situation and losses as a whole is a whole other thing. Stories, idiosyncrasies, habits, secrets, wishes (fulfilled or not) are lost. I remember some of this and lots of that. Yes, I will see each of them again, healed and beautiful but its not just them I mourn, its all of it. Both families have lost much.
As sappy as it sounds, I hope you (all 2 of my blog readers) hug your loved ones a little bit tighter tonight.
I am listening to this song tonight, enjoy. I hope it touches your heart. and yes, as I drive, if you cross my mind, I smile.